Today is the 2nd June 2013. You just came home from a full marathon and resting, but I couldn't stay in bed, so I woke up. What I'm feeling now, is that I should have gone out last night. I could have, but last night I chose to stay home.

I hate the way everything is right now.

It's like everything is slowly moving back to square one. You, looking at your phone all the time, playing games, replying texts. And I just HATES it when you do anything that involves that bitch I hate - Yam Yam Sim. Yes, I will name her here and tell you how much I hate her.

I don't care if we really know each other or not but she's too flirty for a female friend. Yeah, in your terms she is friendly and open, but in MY terms she is flirty because she crossed certain boundaries which I have not seen any female friends done it before. I don't like the way she gets so close to guys when she talks and slap them on the arm and laughs. No, not guy, is guysssss. I don't like the way she talks. I don't like how she must ALWAYS tags the guys on Facebook when there's a run coming up and say oh good luck guys, let's do this together and hey, you can do it, all the best. And wears make up to a marathon? Please just fuck the shit off!

Oh and for your information, each and everytime I see her name? I clearly remembers how you lied to me without blinking.

And I know that you're just ignoring things I post on Facebook sometimes. I don't care. For all I know you can ignore all you want, and when things really happen. You can get angry and shout at me like you've never done it before and we quarrel and we end everything. And then I'll move to new york and we live separately. Isn't that better? No one controls you with who you treat as a friends, no one complains about your habits? We can just do what we want?

I'm sick and tired of worrying and expecting things to happen!

I can guarantee you right now that I am currently losing interest in ALL the things and I don't fucking care if I live or die, married or single, or whether my sister has been raped.

I don't wanna care anymore. I'm gonna live my own life.